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I don't know why I can't handle sadness like normal people. Instead of just breaking down and cry like I want to do, I rage. And now one part of my headphones is gone and I want to die. I'm sorry that I'm such a fucking idiot and I'm sorry that I never do anything right and I'm sorry that I'm so goddamn ugly and fat. And yes, I'm writing this in english because it's easier, and it doesn't feel as real. Kind of like it's in a movie, which you can just stop watching when it gets too bad. Will someone just kill me? I know there's plenty of people out there who would want to. I would do it myself, but I'm too much of a coward I think.